Letter to my mom;; Happy mothers day

My darling Mommy(:

Having a mother like you while I slowly grew up was the greatest gift and biggest advantage anyone could ever have given me. I know I am no where near done growing, and you aren't quite done teaching me either. It is because of the confidence and values that you instilled in me that has kept me strong in all my journeys. Thank you for shaping me into a person who I am starting to like and one day be proud of. Thank you for letting us believe that we could be whoever we wanted to be, do whatever we wanted to do, there were no limitations except our drive, ambition and creativity. Mothers day is a day to honor your mother, to let her know that you love her, and mommy I love you so dearly. Having this time to be gone has made me miss you so much, we fight. Truth is that when God made me you were his muse.We are way to much alike to not fight. You put two bulls in a room there gonna butt heads, and us davis's surely are bulls. I sincerly want to say thank you..

Thank you for your unwavering support through out my journey.

Thank you for reading, before I ever began to write, I read. You taught me that reading is a world of its own, a world with beautiful words and true emotion and thats how I found my own world of writing.

Thank you for taking such great care of me, the countless cold rags and hair massages I have recieved over the many years of awful pain.. You always knew exactlty what to do even when I swore up and down I was going to die from pain.

Thank you for hair, and your body figure, for the softness of your skin. I know I am always saying how mad I am at you for giving me your skin complection and hair.. Blah blah blah. But I thank God he gave me features that always mirrored my mommy. I love that I am beautiful, and I know I am beautiful now because you showed me that beauty is more than skin deep.

Thank you for taking me to the chiropracter even though he was total bull, you would do and try anything if it made me better.

Thank you for buying me new pajamas and a stuffed animal the night before my ear surgery, i loved Gabriel (:

Thank you for always having hope for me when I didn’t have any for myself.

Thank you for telling me not to give up when I said I couldn’t do it any more, you knew I was stronger then I was letting on.

Thank you for never giving up on me when I went through that dark period, when I shut every one out of my life. When loving me must have been like trying to hold a cactus. Thank you for loving me through all of my rejections of help and love.

Thank you for watching me dance, that was such a beautiful passion for the both of us, I don't think there was one ballet show or lyrical competition you didn't cry at.

Thank you for giving me your strength, you are one of the strongest, inspiring, awestruckingly amazing woman on Gods green earth and I am so beayond lucky to have you here for me.

Thank you for mediating in the relationship with me and Callie, I know it must be very hard for you to be stuck in the middle of the tension that comes between us. Thank you for never taking sides, for being there for both of us equally, for being the perfect mother.

Thank you for reminding me my older brother will always be there even when I feel like hes a million miles away.

Thank you for giving me the relationship I had with Papaw, I embraced that bond with him because I could see in your eyes as he got sicker that you were your daddy's baby girl, and I wanted to love him the way you do. And I did love Papaw like that.

Thank you for cornering me into reading at Papaws funeral.. It was the absolute hardest thing I have ever done in my life. As I was talking about our football games I lost it, then I looked up at you.. You made me strong mommy. You gave me everything I needed that day.

Thank you for driving to Marietta to see a quack head doctor and wait for seven hours watching crazy people, I miss going to see him, I miss that time I had with you.

Thank you for telling me to embrace my "Dark Streak." You were the one who told me that a dark streak isn't bad, as long as you use it in a way that soothes your soul.

Thank you for coming and getting me from school, and Tinas, and Marys, and God knows where else because I had a migraine.

Thank you for putting me in cheerleading after dance, even though it was an epic fail.

Thank you for never giving up on me and thinking that I can go far in life.

Thank you for taking me to every single doctor appointment I have ever had, even now that I'm 18 (:

Thank you for making me take those pictures with Callie, I'm glad you finally put up a picture of me on the mantel, it made me happy.

Thank you for taking my late-rebelion bullshit, I know its a few years overdue but I'm just a girl, whos growing to be an amazing woman one day.

Thank you for being there for me, when other people didn’t know what to do with me or for me when I was so raw with depression. You never gave up and just let me go on psycho pills, you knew I could beat it without them.

Thank you for calling me before papaw passed, I was so mad I wasn't there and couldn't talk to him one last time, but I was so glad that my mommy called to tell me, and make sure that I was okay.

Thank you for the late night tv spats over text messages(: They always made me laugh.

Thank you for the countless years of devotion and exspenses so that I could persue my dreams and talents of being a dancer, you gave me that outlet. You planted that amazing dream of a balerina in my head and It made my life so much sweeter to know you were there with pink roses after every show.

Thank you for loving us all the same, and taking in Mary Margaret, she loves you just as much as I do.

Thank you for getting me butcher block after I got dehydrated, it was super yummy.

Thank you for supporting my memorial for papaw, I was scared to put it up in the upstairs room because I didn't want to hurt you, but I knew you were strong, and I knew you had the grace to look at it with pride.

Thank you for being my good luck charm, my muse, my hero, my savior, my therapist, my chauffeur, my cook, my best friend, my nurse, my life.

Thank you for helping me embrace my love for helping people, you always believed my heart was meant for helping wether its senior citizens or children, you knew I had a gift to help people and I think I inherited that gift from you.

Thank you for trying your hardest to show me that you can be really sick and still fight the fight, a disability is a disabilty but you can over come it, I know its going to be a long hard journey to get where I want to be in life and being sick has not helped me take a single step in this journey, but you made me believe I could be different, I could go somewhere and still be sick. I will NEVER let my neurological problems become an excuse because you have not made it your excuse. You fight the fight and taught me to as well.

Thank you for understanding how I feel to be sick, your the ONLY person in the world who knows what I am going through and can understand and realize that sometimes its just to much. You are my only shoulder to lean on when my health gets rough, and your the only one I want to lean on, you are the only one I trust to take care of me.

Thank you for letting me sleep on the pull out bed, britts floor, callies floor, the couch, even the guest room.

Thank you for always buying us cute candies at walmart in the seasonal section, I feel like in ten years when I have a family I will be strolling down that isle quite often picing up Hip-Hop easter marshmellows. Tradition,ya know(:

Thank you for always taking my hand and guiding me in the right direction, you never let go and thats a hard task to acomplish with a harddeaded Davis like me huh (theres some hard headed West in there though no doubt)

Thank you for accepting me for a lost and seamingly dark person, but in a beautiful way.

Thank you for understanding that I am not Callie, I cannot be that beautiful. I am not Getty, I cannot have that much love in my heart, I am not Brittin, I will never have his wit.. You accepted me for Caitlyn, a passionate, caring, soft being.

Thank you for making me feel beautiful, for making me strong. For giving me hope. And teaching me to love.

Thank you for moving at Papaws funeral.. That meant the absolute world to me when you got up and made Daddy move. I have never been more happy in my life until you sat down beside me and took my hand because in the two seconds it took you to do that, it gave me a million miles of courage to get up there and speak in Papaws honor. In that second, you gave me all of your love and hope and strength, you made that possiblem, and if you hadn't came to me, I don't think, in fact I know  I would NOT have made it through. It was like that sypothetic (even though you swear you aren't) mommy instinct came out and you touched my hand and every single bit of the power and strength inside you was trasnfered from your touch to mine, because you knew I needed it. Thank you for that Mommy, that was the best thing you could have ever done for me..

Thank you for taking my hand and leading me into a big scary world, and never letting go. You have showed me a lot in these short eighteen ALMOST nineteen years.. You have taught me more than any public school system have ever could, you showed me how to love other people, and then love myself. You showed me that family is abond that last forever, even when times get rough. You made me realize that there has to be alight at the end of the tunnel at somepoint, and even if its just a flickering candle, you can't turn back because success is so, so close.. You have been here for me even when I didn't deserve to have you here for me.

Thank you from taking me to a broken catterpillar into a beautiful, growing, sincere butterfly, you made me someone I would want to be in life. If I could give ANYTHING to not work, not have to seperate my time and just be a mother and do my family right the way you have done yours very right.. You are who I want to be when I grow up, and I'm getting close to being there, but I'm not there yet so don't cry.

Mommy I love you more than my heart can express, you have given me more than I could have ever asked for from a mom. You have taken the best and the worst of times and made them into memorys and jokes to laugh about. You are the most important person in the world to me, your my mommy, and I am your first born girl. I heared you tell Carrie one day that you were blessed to have a family like ours.Your wrong. I'm blessed to have been raised by someone with so much love to give and so much hope for the word family.. You are more than just a mom to me you really are my best friend. I am so lucky to have been taught by your way's. You have blessed what use to be a broken sad road, and made it into a beautiful, hopeful, soon to be successful road.. Thank you mommy, I love you as much as all the stars and moons in the sky, your my hero<3