I still say your name when I talk in my sleep..

Sometimes we get so lost in all the chaos of everything going on, that we forget to use our emotions, and we go with what people tell us to do instead of what our hearts tell us to do.
I have forgotten what it feels like to hurt like this, I forgot that stabbing pain we get in our chest when we have to walk away from someone that we don't want to walk away from. The awful numbness we surround ourselves with and the walls we build up after something happens that tears your heart up.. God how badly I want to just say "I love you and I still need you..."