And this is so hard, cause you were the love of my life and it kills me..

Everything we are told in our lives are just series of lies, when you say you love someone you are meant to protect them and as a female I expect to be protected by the one I love. It makes my heart wrench to realize that people are out there only saving themself,but when you say all these magical things about love, doesn't that mean you have to save not only yourself from dangers of every kind, you save your other half as well.
Whatever happened to the men who never let anyone hurt or talk about the love of there life, the ones who care more about how they are then what there doing, the men who will take a bullet for you...I miss them, with those men the world seemed safer and you knew that no matter what he would never let anything happen to you.
It just seems to hurt when you realize that you were never being taken care of, the intent was there but never really came through.. Sometimes love doesn't make all things possible.

The once beautiful skies that shined with love and drew the heat of the romance through there bright rays of light have faded. The night is once again still and dark, there are no hopeful stars, the moon doesn't seem as beautiful and the night air never felt more lonely.
The once beautiful light that your eyes gave off has stopped glittering, there red from tears and the makeup he once thought was beautiful is smeared across my pale face, this truly is the most painful thing I have ever had to do,my heart doesn't beat as fast and this mind numbing pain is starting to get worse, I want to open my arms and want you to come home, the walls and sheets feel empty without you, this kills me because I feel so betrayed, the nights are long and cold, but I know its time to go.  I love you more than the stars and the moon, you make me whole, now I am nothing. You took all of me, I am a ghost now, I have no purpose, just a ghost with a broken heart and shattered soul. Don't forget me, I love you. 143.

I still say your name when I talk in my sleep..

Sometimes we get so lost in all the chaos of everything going on, that we forget to use our emotions, and we go with what people tell us to do instead of what our hearts tell us to do.
I have forgotten what it feels like to hurt like this, I forgot that stabbing pain we get in our chest when we have to walk away from someone that we don't want to walk away from. The awful numbness we surround ourselves with and the walls we build up after something happens that tears your heart up.. God how badly I want to just say "I love you and I still need you..."

Your a lover, I'm a runner..

My name is Caitlyn Becca, I am a young lady going somewhere in this big scary world. I have been writing what seems like my whole life, I use the freehand verses as my way of telling the world who I am and how I feel. Its a passion, a outlet and a beautiful one at that. I feel like I am watching this giant big screen and my life is the starring movie. So I have started "Write with love" as my way to use the voice I have been hiding and write how I feel. This blog is my voice that has been to silent for to long.
I have a story and a idea of the way this world spins and I am ready to shine and show people that when you have the heart to do something you find a way, its a long hard road for everyone and each turn is another plan, another chance to go further in your life. I want people to read my thoughts and find a better hopeful day inspired by the idea of a better world through a different perspective.
I want to inspire others, the way that I have been inspired, so welcome to my life.